The Worse One Yet

My marriage has ended? I said vows, I remember saying them, and I took them to heart. For better or for worse. I did that. Until death do us part. Whoa! Wait! What?!?!?!? My marriage has ended? Hearing this objectively was the hardest thing I've heard in the last 14 weeks. I'm. Not. Married.

This realization led to the absolute worse day since January 10, 2011. I have been an emotional, vomiting mess. Oh, sure, Easter has much to do with it too. I guess I'm having a two-fer day.

Peyton's Prayers

I adore our family prayers every night. I am in awe of how the children are growing in this task. Tonight, Peyton asked if she could pray, and if it weren't for me praying, I swear I would LOVE to video tape her one night. ;)Peyton's prayers go a little something like this:

Father Goddard (I don't know why she turns it into Goddard, instead of God, but it's stinkin' cute. The problem is, it reminds me of Jimmy Neutron's dog, Goddard),
I miss everyone.
I miss my Daddy.
Daddy went with Jesus.
I love love love love love him SO much.
Father Goddard,
I love Mommy.
And I love Dylan.
And I love Cameron.
And I love Daddy.
Bless everyone.
I love you.
Amen.

Pure joy right there! <3

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. Proverbs 22:6

Mom

At bedtime Cameron's blood sugar number was low, so after prayers, he just laid in bed with me. The next thing I know, Cameron is crying, steady tears streaming down his face, and I joined in. All he could say was, Mom. (Pause). Mom. (Pause). Mom. I responded with I know Cameron. I know.

My precious boy has never been so exposed with me. I pray he continues to show me his emotions, rather than bottling them up, as was his Dad's MO.

More Crap Than Toilet Paper

Do you ever feel like you have more crap that toilet paper in your life? Today is one of those days.

My dryer isn't working. Again.

My computer won't let me log in.

I've left Facebook gaming.

Dylan's DS is under warranty and I can ship it, free with prepaid shipping labels, and get a gift card to replace it.

Please pray I get my computer back up and running. I have 1000's of IRREPLACEABLE pictures on there.

Dating (From Cameron's Perspective)

I tried to post this to my Facebook wall (several times) but it still isn't showing up as a whole post.

Cameron: Mom, will you ever live with somebody again?

Me: I live with 3 somebodies.

Cameron: No, I mean...will you ever date?

Me: OH! Cameron...I...uh...

Cameron: I just don't want you to be lonely Mom. You have too much love to give and some guy is going to get a great catch.

Me: Cameron, what do you know about a great catch?

Cameron: You're a fantastic cook, you're the best mom, you're fun and funny and you deserve to be happy. He (the, uh, guy I'm suppose to date, according to Cameron) won't replace Dad, but he'll be just as lucky as Dad to have you. He (the guy Cameron has me dating) is going to have to be awesome to win your heart Mama.

When this kid uses Mama, I know he is speaking from his heart. As hard as I may try to hide certain aspects of this process, it amazes me what my children pick up on. Leave it to Cameron to vocalize it. I LOVE that kid!