More Crap Than Toilet Paper

Do you ever feel like you have more crap that toilet paper in your life? Today is one of those days.

My dryer isn't working. Again.

My computer won't let me log in.

I've left Facebook gaming.

Dylan's DS is under warranty and I can ship it, free with prepaid shipping labels, and get a gift card to replace it.

Please pray I get my computer back up and running. I have 1000's of IRREPLACEABLE pictures on there.

Crushed

I logged on facebook tonight after our family prayers. You all (well not EVERYONE on facebook, but a great deal of you) have told me that my posts, my emotions, my feelings...that I put myself out there and it makes it easier for you to pray for me. I have asked for a few prayer requests, but tonight...my beautiful prayer warriors, tonight is different.

My spirit is crushed. I have been crushed for a couple of weeks now, and I have been throwing myself a great, big, 'ol pity party for 1. I am heartbroken (which is nothing new the last 11 weeks), but I feel it more strongly right now. I feel it to the depth of my soul. I feel it physically, not just emotionally. I. AM. BROKEN. I don't know if it's another holiday rolling around, or that Monday it will be 12 weeks since my Beloved left us and went to heaven.

Please pray for a few things for me. 1.) My husband's cause of death would be expedited. We are entering the 12th week on Sunday. The day after Mike's autopsy they told me 12-16 weeks. Please pray it would be 12, not 16. 2.) Pray that I would have the strength to move on. I'm going on, but I'm not moving very fast. I was born on Groundhog's Day, and I absolutely HATE the movie, yet I am living it EVERY damn day of my life right now. 3.) Pray that I would have the courage to do what I need. I'm a fearful person by nature, seriously afraid of my own shadow. I am afraid of my future. I am fearful of when the other shoe will drop. I don't want to live my life like that, not now or for the rest of my life.

When I logged in I scrolled down a bit to find that Laura, God's appointed messenger to me, had posted this verse...

"The righteous cry out and the Lord hears them: he delivers them from all their troubles. the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:17-18 She coulddn't have known why I logged in, and still, I felt like it was directed at me.

Thanks to all who read this and pray for me.