Normal?

Diane made a comment last night that she should have stayed until Thursday (after my birthday). And then...her flight got cancelled this morning due to a snow storm in New York. hehehe She put that out in to the universe last night, and Mike said, "Hmmmm...let me see what I can do about that?" LOL

The yearbook teacher, Jessica Payne, at AVHS contacted me for pictures. They are dedicating a page to him in the yearbook. :(


I fell asleep at the kitchen table after eating lunch. I guess I was tired. :-/


I enjoyed watching Cameron play various sound clips from Star Wars on his MacBook and Sara cracking up. :)

Now I am enjoying Pomegranate Margaritas, Cookie Brownies, and a Nicholas Sparks movie marathon with Diane & Sara...pretty awesome start to my 36th birthday.

Is this a normal day? It wouldn't have been a month ago...but I guess it's my normal now.

Back to School

I sent the boys to school today. Their first day back since Hubby died (3 weeks ago this morning). Cameron called mid-day, during a blood sugar check, and said, 'What a welcoming committee!' I'm so very blessed that my boys are at AAE! :) When I picked Dylan up from school. His teacher said he had a really good first day back. I'm so very happy! ♥

I'm a a lucky girl...I get another night with Diane! Woo-Hoo! :) We watched, or rather, she slept and I watched, P.S. I Love You. I wish I had chocolate of some kind...REALLY wants ice cream. Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough sounds perfect!

The First Day...

It is the day after. I worked the last 3 weeks to have a beautiful service honoring my equally beautiful husband. Now...THIS is the first day of the rest of my life. :'( Have I told you lately how much I HATE Sunday's?!?!?

We woke up this morning and met the Carpenter's for breakfast. Auntie Shelly and Uncle Trace fly home today, so breakfast seemed like a good idea. I originally said I wasn't going to go, but...I wasn't going to be ruled by my emotions. My family came all this way for me. Granted, they were suppose to be here for a HAPPY occasion, which is how Mike had planned it. Instead, January 10th turned it from happy to sad.

You really can't take us Carpenter's anywhere. We are a crazy bunch of people. We took a few crazy shots at breakfast, and the funny thing is, Mike would have HATED it. LOL




After breakfast, and saying our goodbye's, the kids and I went to Target, did a little shopping (which included buying P.S. I Love You for $7...I have been wanting to watch that since Mike died, weird?). My plan for the day was to clean my house. My dear husband must be appalled at how his house looks. Diane, my dear, sweet, loving friend, came to help. She had NO idea what she was getting herself in to.

My main priority was my kitchen. I know people say that the kitchen is the heart of the house, and in my house, it truly is. I am a little chef, and seeing my kitchen in such disarray was really breaking my heart more. We even dunged out the fridge, which, seriously was GROSS! I had shopped the day before Mike died, and NONE of it got used, or thrown out. There were a few time where Diane and I GAGGED.

We worked our way in to my room...hmmmmm...my room, yea, I guess it is mine now. I would love to make my room a little sanctuary, someplace peaceful, beautiful, where I can go and bawl my eyes out if need be. Needless to say, not a whole lot got accomplished there. We sat on my bed, talked, and cried most of the time. Now I get to have a sleepover with Diane!

Faith, Family, Friends

For those who have been reading with me for awhile now, you know that I take the title of my blog VERY seriously. I live by faith and desire my children to do the same.

The family...well, that's harder. Obviously I have a family, and unfortunately we cannot pick our family. Mike and I often said that we made our friends our family. We meant it. One such instance is Chris & Amy. Amy showed up at my doorstep a couple nights ago because I hadn't returned her phone call. I hadn't done that on purpose, I just hadn't gotten to her message yet. (Between the house phone, my cell phone, and Mike's cell phone I have 100 voicemails. This does not include the emails, facebooks, or texts.) Amy, trailed by her 3 beautiful boys, hugged me and we cried. She insisted on making us dinner, and we set it up for Friday night (perfect as my cousin's Brian & Alicia with their 2 boys are coming in).

Fast forward to this afternoon and Alicia tells me they won't be here until 9 tonight. Amy has cooked for an army, no doubt, so I call and ask her and the family to stay. I needed that! Their friendship means the world to me. And I may have to dedicate a post just to them soon.

They were leaving when Brian and Alicia got here. The overlapping was nice, because being by myself at night is REALLY hard. Brian, Alicia & I stayed up...well, into the wee hours of the night (as you can tell by the time stamp). I am blessed by their presence here this weekend.

In the morning, I will keep Peyton's first haircut appointment. The day is just taking a different turn. We were suppose to get Peyton's hair cut, and then her 3rd birthday pictures (as we had to postpone those with the death of my Grandma). Instead, it will just be her haircut...too many firsts this first week (Dylan's first tooth & Peyton's first haircut). :(